Sunday, April 29, 2012

Can I be a Single Mom and Work From Home

I have to say that I love my job, but I am wondering if it is worth it. I have missed two days this week because of being sick and I know my check will not be enough to pay the bills that I have to pay. In addition to that I just found out that the hours have been cut for the next couple of months. I know two or three hours do not sound like a lot, but $20 makes a huge difference in my pay. I NEED that money.

Since I am going to be starting school in August I am even more concerned about whether or not it is worth working full time, going to school full time, and being a full time single mom. I do not have healthcare through my job, and if I did sign up for it the cost would be half of my paycheck each month. The only bonus of my job is that I have a regular weekly check and a very caring group of people that I work with. We are a small family.

Being able to work from home would make a huge difference in my life once school starts, but would I be able to make enough. At the moment I have no savings, do not make enough to pay all of the bills every month, and still have to consider all of the baby expenses. I was making a residual income of about $500 a month last year at this time, but I lost my motivation once the baby was born. I also did not have a lot of time to focus on my home income once I started working full time. If I took the time each day that I go to work I think it would be possible financially. It is the possibility of it not working out that scares me. I am the only provider for my son.

There is still a couple of months for me to decide and we all know that everything can change in a couple of months. I am going to try and make the decision that is the best for my son. I have to have financial stability for him, so we will see what is to come with my online income and life before I make the final decision about working from home or not.

Friday, April 27, 2012

Positive Single Mommy

In the last week I have felt a little down at times, but I was just going through a lot of thought. My life is not bad at all. Yes I do have financial issues, but I honestly feel as if they are working out. I am a very optimistic person and I know it will all be better soon. I just have to give it time. Even though I know it will all work out I am still working on a plan of my own to get things going better.

I had lost focus on what is important in my life, my son. I have to do everything in my life to make his life better. School is a very big beginning for me, and I know it will be stressful. In addition to school I will continue to work full time, and hopefully be able to increase my online income so that I will not have to work quite as hard in a year or so. The main thing that I have to learn is self discipline and sticking to a schedule. I know things will change, but I need a schedule to help me keep focused on everything in my life.

My focus for the month:

  • Set up a schedule for work, school, and life
  • Start a tighter financial plan
  • Remember that every penny is important, even if it is just a dollar a day it can pay a bill.
  • Get things accomplished when it comes up, no more procrastinating
  • Remember what is important every day!!
All of this actually looks simple when I am just typing it out on the computer, but when I try to put it to work in my life it tends to be more difficult. Being a mom is difficult, but being the only person that is responsible for my son is beyond stressful some days. It is still all for him.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Feeling Stuck in Life

I am feeling stuck in my life at the moment, and do not know where to go. I am currently having to take care of my son, disabled mom, disabled sister, two nieces and a nephew financially. In the next couple of months my sister should be making enough money from child support and disability so that I do not have so much to worry about. This is where I feel stuck. I love my family, but I feel as if I need to move on.

I start school in August and the drive to school in about 45 minutes each way. I work close to my home, but I am having issues with my job. I really do love my job, but I do not make much money and I am currently having issues with an employee that is really disrupting the work environment. I work at a place with only 5 employees so when one starts causing problems it just disturbs everyone and I am truly questioning if it is worth it.

How I feel stuck; Do my son and I move closer to school without my family and I find a job that pays better? Do I find a job that pays better and stay with my family until I finish school since my mom is my baby sitter? Do I just deal with my lower paying job and stay with my family? I just feel stuck with my life. I have choices to make and just do not know what to do. I am going to pray about it and ask God to guide me, because I just can't figure it all out.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Women of Strength

In recent weeks I have been letting people know about returning to school full time. In addition to school fill time I will be working full time, and of course being a full time single mom. I am doing this to be able to provide my son with a better future, but some have called me a women of strength.

I do not see myself as a women of strength. There are so many women out there that fight to protect there children from abuse, that have fought for the rights of people, or stand up and fight for so many other things. I am not saying I am not a strong women, but there are women out there that have accomplished so much more and have to fight on a day to day basis.

I have to say that my mother is one women of strength that I look up to. She had to fight to protect us from our dad, whom was abusive. She did everything in her power to protect us, and there are so many women out there that does this. I look up to those women. They are true women of strength. They put there children's lives in front of theirs. I would do the same thing if I had to, but I pray to God that I never do.

I do not consider myself a women of strength, I consider myself a mom. A mom that will work her butt off for the next few years to make sure that her son will have clothing, food, shelter, and a good education. If by some means I can give him more I will, but he will learn that things are never just given. Everyone should have to work for what they have, including him.