Injured Single Mommy! Now What?

Wow things keep happening. Last week I missed work Monday because I had the Flu. Thursday night I fell on my kitchen floor, running from a skunk that was outside, and I am hurting so bad. My right arm is so bad I can't straighten it all the way. My back is hurting so bad that I can barely lift up my son without help. My right leg is bruised and hurting, and I was just getting over an injury with it.

I am scared. I went to the hospital on Friday, nothing broken, and I had to miss work all weekend. I have an appointment in the morning with my doctor, and I am really scared. The pain is not easing up, even with oxycodone.  I try to live day by day, but I have a lot of what if questions in my head.

What if I can't work for a few weeks, or more?
What am I going to do about an income if I have to miss more work?
How am I going to pay my bills?
How am I going to feed my son? I get a little food stamps, but not much.
How am I going to keep a roof over my families heads?

There is just so much going through my head right now, and I do not know what I am going to do. I have been at my job for a year on the 30th, but as of right now I do not qualify for FMLA. This means they can hire someone else in my place and not have a job for me. If this happens I really do not know what will happen.

I start school next Monday. The good part about that is I will only be going to class two days a week, the other classes are online. If I need surgery or anything on my arm I can get someone to help me with my typing. I had two surgeries on my right arm a few years ago, so I know how to type fairly well with just my left hand.

I know that I do not have a lot of readers on my blog, but if anyone reads this and has any ideas of what I can do please comment or message me. I am scared. I promise my son all the time that he will always be taken care of, and I feel like I may not be able to if I am hurt bad. I do not want to let my son down. He is my biggest concern in life. I will go without before he does!

What to do?

Since my son has been born I have been working a lot. I have been able to spend more time with him in the last few days, since I had to evacuate my home due to the Waldo Canyon Fire. This was an unfortunate way of getting to spend time with him, but I am loving it. I didn't realize how much I have been missing in his life. Now I will be starting school in August as well as working full time, I will be missing a lot more.

What can I do? I want to spend more time with my boy. He is my life, and I do not want to miss him growing up. I need to find more ways to make money at home. I know there are great ways to make money, I just have not figured them all out. I signed up to sell photos yesterday, I am trying to write more online, so what else can I do?

The next few weeks I will be trying to figure this out. There are a lot of decisions to make, and I have to do what is rite for my son and I. Life is too short to be missing out on everything he is doing. I guess I will work hard the next few weeks to figure it all out. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know.

Feeling Stuck in Life

I am feeling stuck in my life at the moment, and do not know where to go. I am currently having to take care of my son, disabled mom, disabled sister, two nieces and a nephew financially. In the next couple of months my sister should be making enough money from child support and disability so that I do not have so much to worry about. This is where I feel stuck. I love my family, but I feel as if I need to move on.

I start school in August and the drive to school in about 45 minutes each way. I work close to my home, but I am having issues with my job. I really do love my job, but I do not make much money and I am currently having issues with an employee that is really disrupting the work environment. I work at a place with only 5 employees so when one starts causing problems it just disturbs everyone and I am truly questioning if it is worth it.

How I feel stuck; Do my son and I move closer to school without my family and I find a job that pays better? Do I find a job that pays better and stay with my family until I finish school since my mom is my baby sitter? Do I just deal with my lower paying job and stay with my family? I just feel stuck with my life. I have choices to make and just do not know what to do. I am going to pray about it and ask God to guide me, because I just can't figure it all out.

I am Officially a Mommy

My son Torrie, was born on June 10th, via cesarean. He was a big boy, 9 pounds .08oz and 21 inches long. It is indescribable how I felt the first time I saw him, heard him cry, and hold him. I have never felt so much love for someone. Having him has given me a great purpose in life, and that is making sure he is always cared for no matter what. I will make sacrifices in life to give him everything that he needs, and hopefully I will be able to give him things that are just wants as well.

To make sure he is taken care of for the next few weeks of maternity leave I have shifted my focus to working more online. I am getting into a schedule of working when I can, and trying to get more work accomplished in a short amount of time. Before now my online income was not a necessity, but it is now. I can not work for another five weeks, so I have got to have a continuing income to make sure he has the things he needs.

I have to give it to single moms everywhere, it is not easy. I have help from friends and family, but it is still hard trying to get used to taking care of your child, and not letting yourself go. I am less than two weeks into being a single mom, and it is hard, but so worth it.